Thursday, 19 November 2015

Omg, It's ishacool here!

I haven't called myself or used the name ishacool in a long time. It's funny how I used to be protective over this name and now when I see imitations, I sit back and smile and think yea, I was loved or once was on a site that gave me so joy, but caused me sadness and so so much pain. I created and made ishacool and I'm proud of her of her achievements. To Mspians reading this post, if you haven't guessed it yet, I've quit MSp. I have been inactive in the sense of making movies for well over a year! I said my goodbyes a long time ago while I was on Msp. I attempted to quit several times in the past but l couldn't do it because I was too attached to the game and couldn't bare to leave the friendships I've form there.  I always said when I quit you all will know. The time is here. I hardly log into Msp.. Close friends of mine have been logging into my 2 accounts ishacool and whenever they miss me on there. If your thinking what about Missisha. Well Missisha is actually one of Pandypolo's accounts. Polo created her. I was using it as an extra account at a time when l needed it. 

What can I say about Msp? It was a bitter-sweet journey for me. Being at the top of leaders board doesn't necessarily guarantee one the most liked movie star. Being at the top has it perks but for the most part I was an easy target for so much negativity. During my stay I learned a lot about people in general, friendships and about myself. I am very happy with my decision to quit. It was about time. I was well prepared. I wasn't enjoying it anymore, even the movie making aspect that I loved so much became a chore. Do I have regrets? No, I don't think I do because I've embraced all the good and bad following Msp and used them to improve my life. I am very much at peace with myself these days.  Would I recommend Msp to a close friend or family member based on my experience alone? No. Actually, It depends on the individual and what they want to achieve on the site. Let's face it, there's a lot of bullying, backstabbing and jealousy going on there. I don't think the moderators treats everyone equally either. Its just my opinion, you can agree to disagree:)

In moving on, I want to sincerely thank everyone who stayed loyal and believed in me. My friends/fans kept me at the top of the leader board for almost 4 years!! Isn't that incredible? To think I have been inactive for over a year as well is such a blessing. I'm proud and love you all. I am active on imvu and go by the name of Pheonix. No need to create a user just to say to hi. Seriously, It's not worth doing. I'm mostly on app there these days but I always read and respond to 90% of my messages. My real life have been very busy lately. However, I plan to be more active on imvu after the Christmas holidays.   

To my virtual Sister & Bestie, Pandypolo

It's pretty simple really. Very Cute goodbye post you did but I'm not prepared to let you leave easily. The times that you've left online were the most saddest for me. I remember once when you had to leave Msp and said your goodbyes on the blog like you're doing now, I felt so much pain I could feel my heart breaking. I went in such a panic, followed by deep sadness. You were always an empty space until you were back. Who else I'm I going to cry to when things go wrong or share my joys with?�� You're like the Sister I always wished for. So much has happened in our lives. Things haven't been great in our individual lives but that's life! Nobody said life was going to be easy. We just have to take the bad and good as it comes. The bad times makes us stronger and better. It feels like you're giving up! I know you are stronger than this, so pls stay? Maybe a short break if you have to? We'll introduce more fun things when I'm fully back on client. I know I've changed a lot since I became ill and it's affected all of us. Please understand it's not your fault or anyone's. Unfortunately, it's one of those things that happen in life that affects not only me but also my loved ones, especially those closer to me. It's definitely been challenging. The fact that you're still here says so much. So many has turned their backs when the going got tough. You are one of a kind MissP�� No one will ever take your place in my Iife. I love you so so much. Gosh l make us sound like 2 lesbians lmao. To our loyal readers and followers, Polo and I are straight�� Not that I have a problem with same sex relationships❤️

Tuesday, 17 November 2015

My post important post I am creating, too painful too stay but you need to know how much you matter first

I wish I could tell you everything I’m feeling right now. I know friends aren’t supposed to withhold secrets from each other, but I’m scared. Scared you will be hurt and again, upset with me that I have not been honest with you. I’m hurting so much on the inside right now about our little situation and I just want you to know I still love you the same, I've never loved you any less no matter what happened. You know why I love this blog so much? It holds all our memories from when we started MSP I know we've had some terrible times but we got through it, and even made great memories along the way this blog is proof of that! Sometimes when I'm feeling nostalgic I come here to reminisce :D 
All the beautiful memories that we have made together as friends will be cherished and fondly remembered and forever engarved in my memory. I guess we have a lot to keep ourselves busy with until we meet again. 

 I feel like i can tell you anything and it’s like we are family. You have always been there for me and we have the best times ever! You are literally like my sister  I know that we have had struggled our way through but I know that you won#t forget me (i hope) as I will never forget you!. To the loveliest, sweetest,  and most beautiful best friend in the world- I love you with all my heart and you mean the world to me, please don’t forget! I SAID DON'T FORGET. One day  we’re gonna be those two crazy ladies in the nursing home having wheel chair races.
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I love you. We are and always will be best friends.
Nothing, not even distance, can change that. I’ll meet new people and so will you. We’ll always be in each others hearts. Ill always love you.
Our friendship is more than cute boys drama and parties, Its a bond. Stronger than any I’ve known.
This ''goodbye'' is just a test of our friendship. Let’s promise each other that distance and time won’t come in the way of our beautiful relationship.

The friendship we have is the kind that only comes along once in a lifetime. The kind where we can know what the other thinks and feels without saying a word. You mean everything to me- there really isn’t another way to put it
I wish you nothing but the best in your new life. It breaks my heart knowing that I won’t talk to you everyday. I genuinely hope that you find all the happiness you deserve.

But I’m scared. I know it’s selfish, but I need you. And I need you to need me. It terrifies me that you could find someone else to pass the time with just talking like we have done. Your friendship means more to me than you think, and I would be completely lost without it. I would like to think that I’m irreplaceable to you, and that there isn’t another person who could take my place in your life. But I’ve never thought that highly of myself.
Please don’t replace me. Please remember to call me when you can. I’ll always answer, and I’ll always be there for you. No matter what happens, this is no goodbye, its just a see you sssssooooon! ☻

  • I’m sad to leave but I have to face my new endeavours. You have been so good to me and I would like you to know that I thank you for everything.
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RIGHT now for the best part I thought it would be a good idea to go through all the messages FROM THE BEGINNING SINCE WE JOINED MSP and show some of the things we used to talk about on here, It's so funny what we used to be like, and every time I leave and then come back we would be SO HAPPY to see each other again, what I would do to have them days back with you

Lol I remember when we used to try and take pics on msp for the blog in chatrooms
But it was impossible because you was too famous and everyone kept following you


LOL I remember you always used to complain about 
how I would make you look ugly :DDD


During a time I was inactive everytime I log in we would always react this way :D

LOOL omg we were so CLOSE you used to break up with my own bf for me !!!
If he treated me bad LOL :d ☻

OMG I dont know if you remember this but we used to say code red when 
a guy we liked came on or if there was any guy trouble Loool

Another delightful reaction :D
Friends 4ever

I never thought that I would befriend someone who was so different from me, but I found you. Now, I love our kik chats and our convos about what we watched and your beloved prawns,  Lol. You love my weirdness and accept my craziness We have traded so many interests that sometimes I wonder if I like a book or movie because I myself find it interesting, or because I think you’d like it. I’m going to miss our late night convos and..
I’m going to miss you.
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Tuesday, 3 November 2015

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Everyone joining the room





We told her to move so zylah and I could take a pic but she said she was stuck 
so we had to cut her body off so that the camera can see us

suffocation o.o


Everyone, knackered, the end

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Monday, 2 November 2015

There is two parts to this I will talk about two main reasons why people hold grudges, the first one will be about because of how a person is still hurt by a past incident that the other has caused them.

OK so firstly, why do people hold grudges? we've all had at least one person in our lives, though usually multiple persons, who has screwed us in the not-so-fun way. If you haven't yet had the displeasure, believe me when I tell you will, it's inevitable.

Human being are selfish and egocentric. Even when they seem to care about the well-being of others, first and foremost, they care about their own. People aren't always logical, they aren't always fair and thoughtful. They aren't always nice or pleasant. And they most definitely care more about themselves and what they want, than about others and their wants.
So not screwing people over can take quite a bit of self-control, especially when screwing particular people over is quite rewarding. When most people find themselves on the receiving end of bad faith, they sometimes get emotionally defensive and mentally defensive and hold that grudge until the day they die but this is just silly here's why.

The more negative, hateful thoughts you have, the more likely it is that you begin to view other things through a negative glass. Negative thoughts make us feel bad. They make us unhappy so because of this, we inevitably begin to see the rest of our reality as slightly bleaker, in the long run, this has a detrimental effect on your psyche and on your life.
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People who have acted against you in a hateful or disrespectful manner should not have any part of your life. Yet, by keeping them in your thoughts, even if those thoughts take the form of grudges, you keep them alive and a part of your life. The only way to move on with your life is to literally forget about them. This will take time, but the first step is letting go of that grudge you're holding.

OK this is the second part, another reason why people hold grudges is because of a form of identity which I will now explain. this part is much longer as I feel there should be more to it.

To begin with, grudges come with an identity, with our grudge intact we know who we are, a person who was ''wronged'' as much as we don't like it, there also exists a kind of rightness and strength in this identity. When we hold grudges, we have something that defines us ''our anger and victim-hood'' which I guess gives us a sense of solidness and purpose. To let our grudge go, we have to be willing to let go of our identity as the ''wronged'' one, and whatever strength, solidity, or possible sympathy and understanding we receive through that ''wronged'' identity. We have to be willing to drop the ''I'' who was mistreated and step into a new version of ourselves, one we don't know yet, that allows the present moment to determine who we are, not past injustice.
But what are we really trying to get at, get to, or just get by holding onto a grudge and  strengthening our identity as the one who was ''wronged''? In truth, our grudge, and the identity that accompanies it, is an attempt to get the comfort and compassion we was neglected in the past, the empathy for what happened to us at the hands of this ''other'' the experience that our suffering matters as a somebody who was victimized, we are announcing that we are deserving of extra kindness and special treatment. Our indignation and anger is a cry to be cared about and treated differently because of what we have endured...

The problem with grudges, besides the fact that they are a drag to carry around (like a bag of toxic waste that keeps us stuck in anger)is that they don't serve the purpose that they are there to serve. They don't make us feel better or heel our hurt. Lol because at the end of the day we end up as proud owners of our grudges but still without the experience of comfort that we ultimately crave, that we have craved since the first time we got hurt by that person. We turn our grudge into an object to show proof of what we have suffered, a badge of honor, a way to remind others and ourselves of our pain and deserving-ness (idk if that's a word) but in fact our grudge is disconnected from our own heart, while born out of our pain.
Our grudge becomes a construction of the mind, a story of what happened to us. A grudge blocks the light of kindness from reaching our heart, and thus is an obstacle to true healing. but SADLY, in it's effort to garner us empathy , our grudge ends up depriving us of the very empathy that we need, to release it.


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“Grudges are for those who insist that they are owed something; forgiveness, however, is for those who are substantial enough to move on.” 
― Criss JamiSalomé: In Every Inch In Every Mile

“To be wronged is nothing, unless you continue to remember it.” 
― Confucius

“Not forgiving is like drinking rat poison and then waiting for the rat to die.” 
― Anne LamottTraveling Mercies: Some Thoughts on Faith